Life is full of ups and down and everyone have their share in either of these. I guess im pretty much in the down period recently.


I do not feel like talking as much as i do before and i get very tired.


I wanted more time to be alone and i'll rather choose to off my fone to shut out for 3 days since im on off.


Why am i like this?


I tink i have lost something very important recently. It makes me feel lost and weird and out of place.


Am i the only one that hasnt move on when everyone seems to be happy?


Am i the only one that cannot seems to know what i really want?


Am i the only one that gets easily affected by what others say and feels down?


I hope im not the only one.


I only allow myself to enter 10% of unhappy entries here so that the remaining will remind myself to stay positive.


But guess the rest of the unhappiness are still suppressed somewhere inside me for many years.


Why can others be so ruthless and yet so successful to lead a happy life to be rich to have everything that the person wans and life paving out smoothly for him.


wHy!!!!!!!!!!


Whereas many of us have to do so much to achieve what we really wants.


This is UNFAIRNESS!!!!


Its ok to let him have more while i have less but why is it that even he is more happy than i am and i am always on the negative side.


I cannot say my life is upside down now and nothing great is working out on me bcos im in one of the happiest job around and the rest of my family and friends are still with me.


But i still find it unfair.


Why do the bad ones always live the longest and the good ones go off earlier?


I cannot come to terms with myself on this logic. It sounds funny but it is always true.


Im still tinking now to do it or not to do it.


I want my 90% of happiness back.